By Vedika Aum, an ongoing survivor of depression. The image is of a sketch by Vedika depicting bursting forth through the darkness
I live I laugh I create I think I learn
...and I question
I meet silence
I question again and am told to be silent
Watch in silence
Obey in silence
Silence your thoughts,
your questions
I face deafening silence within and without
The silence implodes bursting without in destructive expression
in words
in tears
in blood
Besieging
Imploring
Demanding
...and quietening in silent whimpers
I wait for understanding - In vain
The bars of fear of indifference, of ignorance are too high and strong for me to reach across
I wait….in vain, in my enforced prison sometimes drowning sometimes staying afloat
bobbing in the river of roucous silence
I wait some more
bleed some more
Till I understand,
it's just me who can understand myself
just me who can hold my hand
just me who will reach out to embrace my tears away
Only me who can help me to break free from this endless waiting
hoping
this enforced prison of silence that surrounds me…..
I break free !
Recommended Reading: Staring by Jhilmil Breckenridge
